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14th-Nov-2009 09:40 pm - a random hookup
leighton meester
thats what i was to him
and thats not ok with me
i don't want him
but i need to know he wanted me
but he doesn't
17th-Oct-2009 01:15 am - i wish....
leighton meester
i wish i would stop doing this
i hate that i always start crushing on someone and when they don't feel the same way and start dating someone else i get all depressed over nothing
i had no claim on them
i shouldnt feel sad or rejected because i never tryed in the first place
i just want to go home and curl up in my bed and cry because thats what i really need right now

i wish i would stop feeling insecure
like i'm not good enough
i just don't understand
whats so wrong with me that i can't seem to find a guy who likes me
24th-Jul-2009 11:23 pm - only a month
leighton meester
i have only a month left and it's starting to make me really sad
i feel like i'm leaving behind so many people i have grown to really care about
it's made me think about all the people i call friends
and all i can think is when was the last time they really acted like my friend and not made feel insecure or unwelcome
i think i'm just a really insecure person and they arent very sensitive that fact
i'm getting more stressed every single day....
13th-Jul-2009 12:39 am - Bad Week
leighton meester
i hate sundays.
i used to think of work as an escape from my sucky life
but lately all it does is make it worse
i don't know how much longer i can stay there
it's just not fun anymore
and i have never felt as alone as i do now:(
10th-Jul-2009 09:34 pm - Update
leighton meester
I haven't posted in a while, so this is my condensed version of how life is now.
I think in my last couple of post i was pretty miserable.
i can't really say i'm a ton better.
things are better though

i'm moving away in 44 days for college
i'm excited and nervous at the same time

work kind of sucks
today was my first bad day in a while
my sales were bad but my mood always reflects the moods of others times 1000
 and my boss was in a bad mood so...

i have to go to the beach with my family next weekend. i don't really want to go
i hate family vacations
i'm not in the mood to go to beach
i would rather go with friends

probably won't be posting too much in the future just a post here and there when i'm not in particularly good mood
19th-Sep-2008 07:36 pm - woohoo
leighton meester
[x]i have internet and cable again
[x]my birthday was this tuesday
    it was kinda uneventful but i did wear a crown
    around school all day
[x]i'm so excited
    my friends and i are going to a sushi restaurant for my birthday
    i'm craving sushi right now
[x]i'm kind of bored.
    it's wierd
    i haven't been on the internet in two weeks pretty much and i get bored after an hour
13th-Sep-2008 08:24 pm - this sucks
leighton meester
i don't have internet :(

using my cousins computer

will post a longer update when i get internet back
31st-Aug-2008 05:39 pm - House Bunny and Hurricane Gustav
leighton meester

I saw the house bunny last night with my little sister
it was actually a lot better than i thought it would be

_________

As some of you might know Hurricane Gustav i supposed to hit tomorrow afternoon
I probably won't have electricity or internet for a day or two or more
Hopefully it isn't really bad and i'm ok
__________

Everybody in Lousiana be safe!!!

20th-Aug-2008 06:44 pm - Mid-week update
leighton meester

yay my gossip girl season 1 dvds
the box is so small
it's the size of a regulare dvd case

well i just went and put in an applicaion at target
don't really want to work there but i'll get good hours and better pay

11th-Aug-2008 01:26 pm - Meme
leighton meester

Step 1: Put iTunes or equivalent on random.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 25 songs that play. (I sometimes put 1 1/2 lines, 'cause that's how I roll.)
Step 3: If you know one, post a comment with the title and artist.
Step 4: Don't be a loser and look them up on Lyrics.com, Lyricwiki, etc.
Step 5: Bold out the songs when someone guesses correctly.

I put the first 2 lines for some of these songs.

1.  just talk yourself up and tear yourself down

2.  you can tell me it won't happen

3.  i feel it everyday, it's all the same

4.  how far, you go

5.  i was riding shot gun

6.  oh no i just keep fallin

7.  if you ain't got no money

8.  coming out of my cage

9. i'm gonna make it bend and break

10. whoah, whoahhh / My eyes

11. don't tell me this is your last chance to change

12. shout when you wanna get off the ride

13. That look was priceless, don't let me get carried away

14. Jump back, what's that sound?

15. i am colorblind

16. see the devil on the doorstep now

17. buried in truth

18. i've done everything as you say

19. if i could then i would

20. How I wish you could see the potential, the potential of you and me

21. when i was younger i used to be wild

22. no sir / i don't want to be the blame

23. i'm gonna remember you

24. we get some rules to follow

25. allow me to exaggerate a memory or two

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